freewrite week 6 day 4

Being a twin is over rated.  I spent my life with everyone telling me how awesome it would be and how much they wish they had a twin like me.  My sister and I were fine as kids and always got along.  When we moved to Springfield we slowly grew apart as we got older.  We still hung out with the same people but never really got each other.  Since then we have gone through fazes of being close or just being sisters.  I helped her get out of her first marriage when she was being abused.  She helped as much she could when I was leaving my ex.  We went through a very rough time a couple of years ago.  We spent almost a year without speaking.  We both ended up pregnant at the same time.  Again I hear the same people saying how cool that would be, but when you’re not talking or spending time anywhere near your family it take the coolness out of both of us being pregnant.  Right before we had the babies we started talking without really talking.  Eventually things were okay enough that I even starting watching her son while she was at work.  This all worked till she couldn’t pay me.  Money between family members is always a problem.  Things got back to normal after I stopped watching him.  Then like an idiot a year later I started watching him again when she got a different job.  How stupid was I to think this was going to be any different than the first time. Granted it was more than just her not paying me consistently for watching him.  I never knew when she was bringing him even when I begged her to communicate with me more so I could plan around watching him because I was going to school full time as well.  It lasted almost six months and I didn’t even tell her I couldn’t watch him anymore.  In true family style nothing was ever said to me that my mom and dad were going to watch him from now on.  Nope, the last day time I got any information from her she said she didn’t have any appointments that day.  Then I never heard about it again.  I see no benefits to having a twin.  She’s just a person who looks just like me but is nothing like me.